Monday, December 27, 2010

Are You Serious?

When the nurse told me that Averi's counts were up to 88 today, I was excited for the upward trend, but when she came in this afternoon and announced that we were going home I was in shock!  It was totally unexpected and I asked her if she had walked into the wrong room or if she was playing a joke.  She assured me that she was serious and I asked to talk to the doctor.

It's not that I don't want Averi to go home, of course I do, but I just wanted to make sure that the doctor knew what she was getting in to.  I have a house full of family and her counts are no where near 500.  He explained that her numbers were trending up so he wasn't worried about them going back down again and that everyone at home would have to wear a mask when they were around Averi.  Um...ok?

Once again I am faced with the moment I have been waiting for for weeks and my excitement feels forced.  As much as I 'love' being at the hospital, going home makes me nervous and doesn't really provide much more freedom.
(While I packed I put Averi in the jumper for the first time - do you love the backdrop?  She liked it, although I don't know how much actual jumping she did.)

So, 3 weeks and 6 days after starting cycle 2, we packed up our Christmasy hospital room and headed home decked out in masks.  It's funny, if Averi would keep a mask on, none of the rest of us would have to, and since the main hallway of the hospital is infested with germs I have to carry Averi to the car with a blanket over her head like I'm trying to smuggle her out of there.  Hopefully it was a safe smuggling and we will have an uneventful time away from the hospital.


Lauren in GA said...

I can just see you in my mind...looking like you are smuggling her out of there.

That's great that you get to go home...I would have had the same concerns with a house full of family...everyone will look cute with their masks on. I'll keep praying...hopefully you can be home for a bit.

Oh, my yes...I love the backdrop of the bouncy picture. Very dramatic!

Glenn and Melanie said...

It was great spending time with you at the house - and to have family together - and to look like a bunch of bandits or doctors with everyone wearing masks all the time!!

Tina said...

Yeah! I know the feeling you're talking about the "Yeah!, but really? You're sure?" That happened to me when the Portuguese ENT told us that there was nothing wrong with Sean's voice. Rob kept telling me that I was looking for something to be wrong and I said "No, I'm just worried they got it wrong" So, I'm there with you a little bit.